This is something I am currently dealing with. And yes, it is a real thing: The Impostor Syndrome: Are You Fooling Everyone?
I debated writing this post but then read Becca's post "Reading those articles…" and decided to go for it. While her post doesn't have a ton in common with this one, it struck a nerve. I will admit, I have read a good majority of the articles, picking and choosing the ones that look interesting to me, but then I literally blank out when it comes to writing a blog post about them (as you can probably tell by the lack of posting I have done over the last couple of weeks).
I also read my classmates blogs on a pretty regular basis and respond in comments and in my own blog posts - when I think I can add something to the conversation. Most of the time it is fear that is stopping me.
Fear that:
What if it is obvious I don't know what I am talking about?
What if my classmates think I am an idiot?
What if I blow my cover as a real graduate student?
What if I let my professors down?
What if I let myself down?
What if I do/have done all this for nothing?
In terms of this Metadata course, I am following along as best I can but there are still a lot of concepts that are over my head (um, microformats?). I think it will take a re-read of a lot of the articles and book chapters as well as some hands on experience (I'm looking at you football images!) before I am comfortable enough to say that "I know metadata" and to stop "pretending" like I do.
I debated writing this post but then read Becca's post "Reading those articles…" and decided to go for it. While her post doesn't have a ton in common with this one, it struck a nerve. I will admit, I have read a good majority of the articles, picking and choosing the ones that look interesting to me, but then I literally blank out when it comes to writing a blog post about them (as you can probably tell by the lack of posting I have done over the last couple of weeks).
I also read my classmates blogs on a pretty regular basis and respond in comments and in my own blog posts - when I think I can add something to the conversation. Most of the time it is fear that is stopping me.
Fear that:
What if it is obvious I don't know what I am talking about?
What if my classmates think I am an idiot?
What if I blow my cover as a real graduate student?
What if I let my professors down?
What if I let myself down?
What if I do/have done all this for nothing?
In terms of this Metadata course, I am following along as best I can but there are still a lot of concepts that are over my head (um, microformats?). I think it will take a re-read of a lot of the articles and book chapters as well as some hands on experience (I'm looking at you football images!) before I am comfortable enough to say that "I know metadata" and to stop "pretending" like I do.